I need a new haircut!

So I have an appt for a haircut at 5 pm today. I know I want to chop it off and do something new, but I have no idea what to do with it!

I figure Ive been wearing my hair in a pony tail for too long. Its usually a pretty good indicator for some change.

Any suggestions?

Oh! And, we have another appt with the nurse to go over injections and that sort of stuff, on Monday! YAY! Also, Mom called and made the payment for the IVF, yesterday! AND! Today the mail order pharmacy called me to confirm my order and get payment also!!

YAY!!! It's really happening!!!!!

Our 6th Anniversary!

Well, here we are! Its been 6 years already! We've been through rough spots and soft spots. All of the great and not so good have brought us to where we are today. Getting ready to start a family of our own. I cant imagine life any other way, and I don't even want to try. All of our trials and tribulations have helped us to grow into the people we are today,and helped us to grow into the amazing relationship we're in now. And I'm really proud of that. Proud of who we are. It's been a long road, but it's also a road I would travel again and again, to end up where we are now. I love you babe!

So the Brakes are Off and We are Full Steam Ahead!

So after our appointment on friday with Dr Robins, we ran into a possible snafoo.

Matt has to have a "new patient consult" with the Urologist that will be participating in the IVF before the actual egg & sperm retrieval (TMI? too bad! quit reading if you dont like it! LOL), which is scheduled to be October 29th. (YAY!) But, the urologist's office said they didnt have any openings until October 31st, which is 2 days after the procedure! So that wont work! We may have to wait until the end of November to start our cycle!

Luckily, Dr Robins has such an amazing office staff, that our nurse coordinator call the URO's office and got Matt's appointment moved up to the 20th!! YAY!!!

So sure enough, we get to start this cycle!!! Our nurse is ordering all my injectable meds this Wednesday!

Just had to share my little piece of excitement from this morning!

Ketchup Time!

Aaah! there has been so much going on lately, I havent even had enough time to blog about it!

Well as you know the IVF appointment was on Monday. I ended up having to go by myself, since Matt was still in the hospital, but it was totally fine. The appointment was mostly informational anyway. It went really really well! The Dr talked all about it and gave me some statistics and what not and then (LOL) asked if it was truly something I was interested in! I laughed and asked "When can we start?!" To which he said, rather shocked, "Well I guess as soon as you're ready." Again (LOL) I laughed and asked "When is the next cycle?" SO! We start IVF injections on OCTOBER 10TH!!! woohoo!!

So we have another appointment tomorrow so we can cram as much in to the next 2 weeks as we can! WE START IN 2 WEEKS! yay!

So of course, Tuesday they decide they are discharging Matt from the hospital! Of course they are! I just got home! LOL So back up I went. But at 4 pm, they decide, they don't have everything figured out quite yet, and will release him on Wednesday! DOH!

Of course I had Monday and Tuesday off, but needed to be back on Wednesday. It couldn't have been while I was scheduled off. LOL So, I asked mom if she minded if I missed work yesterday. Which of course she didn't. So we finally got released around 330 or 4 pm, and headed on our way home. (But first we stopped in North Bend so we could peak at the Carters Outlet. LOL)

We didn't end up getting in to town until 930 with all our little stops here and there. Then we had to head over to Option Care to pick up all Matt's IV meds and extra medical supplies, etc.... Holy cow we didn't leave there until 1030! then headed home for good! Matt is still on IV meds for another 2 weeks, and oral meds on top of that. So we have IV poles and oxygen tanks all over the house! We look a little like a hospital room/pharmacy right now!

So now that we have been home for 1 night, we have an appt in Spokane tomorrow! YAY!!! we have 2 weeks until we start!

The important points are: 1) Matt is home and healthy! YAY!!!! and 2) We have a start date for IVF! We are actually doing it! YAY!!!!

I cant wait to see what the future holds for us in the next couple of months!

Road Trip!

So I'm officially on a countdown. i have 4 hours before I am hitting the road to head up to Seattle to be with Matt. Still too long, but what can ya do, right?

I'll be up there today, Saturday, Sunday, and leave really early Monday to drive straight over to Spokane for our appointment with Dr Robins. THEN I will drive home! Whew, its a lot of drive time, but totally worth it. The more time I get to spend with Matt the better.

I'm really going to put my note taking skills to the test on Monday at our RE appt. I want to make sure I get answers to everything Matt would want to know too. Not to mention I'll be so amped up, who knows what I'll miss or not remember. LOL

Here's hoping for a good weekend!

Struggling...

Today I'm having a really hard time being here in the TC, when Matt is in the hospital in Seattle. Although I know he is in the best place for the specialized care he needs, I hate to be so far away.

Tuesday, when I was retelling the story to everyone, I struggled to keep a strong face and got teary eyed a lot.

Wednesday, I did a good job not crying and trying to be more objective and look at the big picture and Matt's health.

Today, I am barely keeping it together. Even without telling the tale, I just THINK about the whole thing and cry. I feel like I've been having a constant panic attack all morning. I absolutely do not want to be at work anymore. I want to be with Matt. I need to be with Matt.

I cant leave until tomorrow. We'll be done with patients at noon, and I am outta here at 1230. I'll be there all weekend. Monday is supposed to be our first appt with Dr. Robins to kick off the IVF. But I dont think Matt will be out of the hospital by monday. I hope and pray, but realistically, I just dont think its going to happen. I guess I'll just go by myself and write down as much info as I can, so I can share with Matt.

I just want him to be better.

Positive thinking goes a long way....

As most of you know, we left on Saturday to head up to Seattle for the Seahawks game (Don't even get me started on losing the game!).

I'll spare you the boring details and jump to the real news.

First off, we lost the stinking game! BOO!

Second, Matt's appointment went better and worse than we expected. Better because we finally got some help from people who ACTUALLY know what they are doing, in regards to our recent issue with Matt's insurance and prescription disaster. Worse because, without his meds (due to the damn insurance catastrophe) Matt's lung function tests were really low. Really really low. So our FANTASTIC doctor Moira, decided that he absolutely had to stay and be admitted to UW hospital and she wasn't taking no for an answer.

Granted I don't like not being near Matt, especially when he is in the hospital, I am really glad he is in the best place for him, surrounded by people who are very competent and knowledgeable about his condition. Hopefully they send him back to me good as new!

Now of course it was all much messier and more traumatic than the above summary, but I have decided to leave it out and focus on the positive. Just please keep him in your prayers.

And thirdly! If you've been following, then you know that we have been waiting on baited breath about Mark's settlement hearing. The trial started on Monday the 8th and ran through Friday, with closing arguments and jury decision on Monday the 15th. Well, yesterday evening the jury came back and decided on only giving a very small portion of what he was expecting. Thus meaning, he wont be able to help us pay for IVF.

BUT! My mom must have the most maternal instinct in the world, because somehow she knew we needed a back up plan! And that plan being, if Mark's settlement wasn't enough to help us, then MY parents would "grant our baby wishes" and pay for IVF for us. Aside from being a huge monetary gift, this is about the most important, special gift than anyone could ever give. I don't have words to express how grateful I am. I don't think there are words. Only the amazing family bond that grandchildren create.

So, next Monday, when we have our initial consultation with Dr. Robins, we will also be able to forge ahead and start making appointments right away to get this baby show on the road! YAY!