Lupron day 20 Estrace day 8

Well it's been 20 fast days already! Every day at 7 am I take pills and at 7 pm I do an injection and take pills.

It's really a breeze. But every time I get out the meds and the syringes etc, with it comes the excitement and anticipation, as well as the fear and stress! Which is then quickly followed by more excitement and anticipation. LOL its a vicious cycle i tell you!

We're now down to 1 week and 4 days until transfer day. Seriously?! Where the heck did the time go?! Now that we're down to crunch time, Matt and I have started talking about this whole 2 embryos vs 3 thing.

You know when we had the initial appointment and the dr told us he recommends transferring all 3, we were surprised that we even had 3 and if that's what the dr recommends, and he is the specialist, duh, go with what he says! But now.... the thought of even the chance of triplets is really daunting. Now to be clear, if all three took, a reduction is just not an option, so we really do need to think about this.

The statistics are 70% with a fresh cycle and 50% with a frozen cycle. So the reason the dr would recommend placing all 3 make sense, so to mention its kind of a, not waste but i cant think of a better term, to transfer 2 and have just 1 single embryo still frozen by itself, since if we were to use it in a later cycle it would be just one at 50%, so the odds aren't great.

So its all such a numbers game and I feel like the ratios and percentages are swimming around my head, and its starting to spin. We haven't made up ours minds yet. I'd like to talk to the nurse and or dr first. But at this very moment I'm leaning towards only doing 2. Of course that really is only good for right now, who knows tomorrow. LOL

Tomorrow is another ultrasound and lab work bright and early in Spokane. Every 5 days. It's weird, but I love all the anticipation I feel on those mornings that i have to get up at 4 to leave at 430 to be to a 7 am appointment in Spokane. Its special to me and reminds me of how much we want this.

***I believe GOD only gives us three answers to our prayers:
1."Yes"
2."Not Yet"
3."I have something better in mind"

Lupron Day 1

T-minus

1 and 1/2 days til i start injections! Wahoo! As if ordering the crazy expensive meds(not to mention NOT covered by insurance) didn't make it real enough, I called and paid for the FET (frozen embryo transfer) cycle yesterday. whew! It was exciting and scary and thrilling all at the same time. And now I start injections on Monday.

I'm trying to be excited, but not too excited. It's actually a hard balance to strike! I think I'm doing a fair job.

FET is longer than than the fresh cycle. Last time I only had to do 2 injections for about two weeks, then the retrieval and transfer. This time, it's 1 injection for almost a month, and a pills several times a day.

Golly I cant believe it's here already. I feel like it was just a few weeks ago that I even made the appointment.

I'm so excited!

CAUTION: weaning in progress!

Well today is day 2 of weaning. We've had 2 nap times and 2 bedtimes without nursing. Although she woke up last night and was super upset about the lack of booby.

Aside from the obvious bittersweet feelings that I'm having, it was really hard not to just give her what she wanted! Especially at 1:30 in the morning! I don't know how to console a baby in the middle of the night without breastfeeding! So this is really a learning experience for me too.

Of course Matt is super supportive and reminds me that I'm doing a great job and we'll get through this with flying colors, just like everything else. It really helped me put things in perspective. This is temporary and will be over soon enough!

It's taken 2 days, but I'm finally engorged and a little uncomfortable. It really just lets me know, she really wasn't even nursing that much anyway, so it was time. I imagine by tomorrow or the next day, it will be gone all together.

sunday morning

and i'm torn as to whether I should watch football or go to the craft store. luckily the Seahawks dont play until 1pm, so in all actuality, I could do both.... But considering Matt, Annika and I are still in our pj's, it might be more realitic to just sucumb to staying home. Maybe I'll order pizza too. LOL

It's time again...

To start blogging!

Of course I really ought to blog more often anyways, but having a big (possibly) life changing occasion helps spur me into action!

Now that Annika is just over a year old, Matt and I have decided to try to get pregnant again! A couple weeks ago, we had an appointment with Dr. Robins for a consultation to get some detailed information and of course pricing (as most of you know, IVF is no cheap thing and cost is definitely of importance). To our surprise he told us we have 3 frozen embryos, not 2 like we've thought this whole time! And not only that, but he would suggest we use all 3 when we decide to do the FET (frozen embryo transfer). "It's time for twins anyways, right?" he says to us. LOL Matt and I about fell off our chairs! Well Matt almost did. I almost fell off the exam table. ;)

So we were thinking of either doing the November or January cycle. November would give us a due date of July 2011, and the kids would be exactly 2 years apart. I took it as perfect timing, so November it is!

It is all moving so quickly! I start injections on October 10th and then ultrasounds start and come mid November, they'll do the transfer and hopefully GOD willing, we'll get pregnant!

We have been so blessed with such an amazing little girl and we are so hopeful that we can have another child!

I am trying to do some last minute fundraising for the Great Strides walk to benefit Cystic Fibrosis!

this Friday the 23rd (yes VERY last minute!) we are having a Bunco tournament and we would love it if you could come or at least spread the word!

WHAT: Coed Bunco Tourney ($10 buy-in)
WHEN: Friday 23rd @ 6 pm
WHERE: Kennewick 1st United Methodist Church Gym (the big one in downtown Kennewick)

There will be lots of prizes for winners (gift certs), a $5 raffle for a gift cert for carpet cleaning with Continental Carpets worth $200, and a silent auction for many goodies (Scentsy, Lia Sophia jewelry, Canyon Lakes golf, Tiffany Parrish Photography and many others!)

we will also have childcare available there at the church to those who need it.

now we just need people to come, donate and enjoy themselves! Everyone is invited!! Even if you don't know how to play or have never heard of BUNCO please come join! The game is a blast and so so easy to learn!!! This event is open to friends, family, co-workers and the community.. so Please Please Please help spread the word and invite everyone you know!!

RSVP if possible for head count purposes.

i appreciate your help and if i don't see you on friday, then hopefully you can still donate here! http://www.cff.org/great_strides/dsp_donationPage.cfm?registeringwalkid=6874&idUser=290211

Every little bit helps!